Today’s gospel is just so beautiful. Having blind and unconditional faith has always been my struggle. I, like Peter, often falter when trusting and believing in people’s plans, especially God’s. When I think about all of the times I was crowded on my imaginary “boat” of my own insecurities, neglect, loneliness, anger, and spiritual dryness, I too become very doubtful of what God has in store for me. In the brink of the unsteady waters and I don’t hear what He has to say…or maybe I’m just not listening hard enough. So in this silence I try to plan and direct my own life, thinking that it will make me happier to have things go a certain way. But it doesn’t. I fail to let go, and let God take the reigns.
As Peter reluctantly cast out his net on the side of the boat, the Lord surprised him with tons of fish, even more than their nets could carry. I am still waiting to cast out my nets into the sea. It’s so dark these unknown waters scare me. I like having things in order, with a plan, and with a goal. But life is passing me by. You cannot have too many plans, or time with go by too quickly for you too catch up.
In tonight’s meeting, we talked about being perfect. Yes, we should try to be the best disciples and humbly accept the call to be ministers of our faith. We should strive to be holy and act in Jesus’ name but in our weaknesses, we are made whole. Realizing our imperfections is the first step to holiness. Through our downfalls, God lifts us up to do great things. In our weaknesses we are strengthened. Together we are strengthened.
It must be time to cast out nets out and become fishers of men. We are more powerful than we think. “[We] can do great things through Christ who strengthens [us]” (Phil.).
I realized today how great we are and our call to service is so important. We need to strive to make every action one that will glorify the kingdom of heaven.